I am in the middle of an epiphany. It is not my first, and it will not be my last. But as I was walking from the community mailbox back to my home, (fifty yards) I saw a shadow running across my path. It was my grey cat, Monk. He has bad eyesight, so he was running to hide from the bigger shadow, me. As soon as I recognized him I said, “Monk”. He stopped in his tracks and then rolled over…his favorite position (like mother, like son). His immediate demonstration of trust and openness made me think of the Beatle’s song, “Get Back”. I thought, YES, finally, “Get back to where you once belong”.
What does that mean? At THIS moment, I have realized that you cannot be in this place of realization until you have struggled through your personal path of destiny. And THAT personal path takes on many forms. Wherever you find yourself, whatever situations, conditions, trials and tribulations you have faced, or are still confronting…it is all meant to BE.
In the larger picture, you (will) know that there is no judgment, no condemnation, no “If you would have made that decision, you wouldn’t be in your particularly difficult circumstance.” I’ve got no time for those folks, I’ve got no patience for judgmental people.
It’s easy to sit on the sidelines of life…being financially comfortable because you have been fortunate enough to have had parents that left you an inheritance. I think that is a great thing, and I applaud parents for taking care of their children, regardless of the age. BUT, what I find distasteful is when those fortunate folks will not own up to the fact that they have received a wonderful gift of love, and a lifetime of devotion from their parents in order to make their lives easier. And worse, is when they blame you for your ‘inability’ to make money, or subtly condemn you for ‘not living up to your potential’.
So…where am I going with this? Here it is…THAT MOMENT, less than one hour ago, when my cat, who is afraid of his own shadow and was left abandoned by humans when their home was foreclosed (I am not judging them, it was a very difficult time,) his gesture of rolling over to the sound of my voice, completely exposing his precious little cat soul to me, made me stop in my tracks. And I realized that I have returned to the kind and gentle person I used be. YET…wiser and aware of the other side of human nature.
Before the ‘bad’ realities of life pummeled my innocent spirit, I was naively trusting. This particular epiphany has made me realize that ALL the hard work I have done to eliminate the ‘negative’ and destructive emotions that had insidiously crept into my being, were now dissolved. At least for now.
I realize there will be struggles ahead (there will inevitably be people who will say, “You create your own reality”). Well then, what about Ram Daas, or Steven Hawkins, or Wayne Dyer? Nobody WANTS nor WILLS their life to be miserable or to have limitations set upon them. Any of you that had that thought flash through yourself should consider yourself fortunate that in THIS lifetime, you have not had to endure chronic pain, or almost unendurable struggle. Because, and this is just a fair warning, you may have to experience it the next time around. (I can hear certain people say to themselves that they are so evolved, they will not be reincarnated). Nothing is certain, except what Source determines. NOTHING.
So, as the new year came around, I decided I would write at the moment of inspiration. I have left many a profound thought float away in the ether, undoubtedly picked up and manifested through another open soul. We are merely vehicles for Source to express Itself. Whether it be you or me, Life must be expressed, and must continue to evolve. All I can say is try to be as conscious as your personal vehicle is capable of handling. Then, push it a little more. That’s how we evolve.
But tonight, as my cat spontaneously expressed his love and trust, after coming from a place of mistrust and abandonment, and more importantly, that I was finally able to recognize, acknowledge and allow his love, I knew that my being, my original self, had ‘come back to where it once belonged’.
Live Purposefully,
Lucy
